Hello World

Well here it goes. Hello world, my name is Jessica and I am new to this blogging thing. I am not even sure how to really start, so here it goes. I have always loved writing and sharing my thoughts with others, but have never had the courage nor the motivation to put it out there on the internet. What changed you ask? Honestly, my weight. It was not the only thing that motivated me to start writing but it was the straw that broke the camels back.

My boyfriend and I have just moved to Buffalo NY in hopes to find a new life and grand adventure! Grew up in Colorado and loved everything about it. We loved the mountains, the weather, the people, the beer, all of it. But we needed change. We wanted to buy a home, travel, start a family. All things would cost an arm and a leg in the 303. So we decided to go somewhere were we could afford to have an adventure. I grew up a very active person, three sport athlete in high school, went to college for track, always very competitive when it came to working out and keeping fit. As soon as I graduated and life (bills) started, it all changed.

We all go through life thinking that when we are older we will have it together. Well in my case that still has yet to happen. I am 28 years old and have NO idea what I want to do with my life. This is the first reason I decided to start blogging. I want to find purpose, I want to find my purpose. I want to find my passion and run with it tell it cannot run any more. I want more than this life that I have created for myself. There has to be more out there than this 9-5. I had a big kid job and big kid hours things were supposed to be great. But with that I had less time to work out, less time to go for hikes, and overall less time be the active outdoor person I once was.

My boyfriend and I started getting serious in that 9-5 life, and we all know weight gain comes when you are happy (stupid boys). I found a way to go to the gym in the morning and we made a pact to eat healthy. Thing were going well tell I got bored at work. There was nothing wrong with my job really I had just mastered my position and had no desire to move onto the next phase of that job. Boredom became stressful. I lacked energy, desire, motivation, my smile. It took a HUGE tole on my life. So one day we decided to make a change. (There is a lot more to that story but I will save it for another day.)

Now, 22 hours and 1500 miles later we are here, in Buffalo NY. The town where we can afford to live and play. The town where we could make all our dreams come true. Well we have been here a month and we have yet to go anywhere or do anything. The stress of moving, getting jobs, finding our way around, transferring bank accounts (the worst part in my opinion),getting a new licence, registration, insurance, and finding money to keep it all together, is not what we expected. We are both stressed, our dogs are stressed, and I haven’t even thought about what this has done to mu physical body. ┬áThen looked myself in the mirror, and I stepped on the scale. My 5’4” body who has never in her life been over 123lbs was now 140.

I am not saying this is a bad weight nor is it unhealthy. Weight is just a number, as an athlete I know that better than anyone. It is how you look and feel that matters. There was a time I new I was bigger but liked how I looked so the number on the scale didn’t matter to me. Now though, I look bad, feel bad, and the number is bad.

So I decided to stop waiting for change to happen and start the change in my life. Hoping to inspire myself to run a bit, travel a bit more, and find the real me! I am now a Blogger.

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