I sit here on a Saturday night watching Braveheart with the love of my life, and I am so greatful to just BE in this moment. I have so many things in my life that could be, or might be, it is nice to just not know for a moment.
I have a lump on my arm that I got MRI ed today, I won’t know the results tell my dr calls me. I have breast pain like never before and am paranoid I have pumps, I have an appointment next week. I hate my job, but I might have another one lined up. All these things are in limbo. All these things scare me. All these things I don’t know right now.
And that is ok. I almost don’t want to know. I want to live my life blissfully with no answers. Day by day moment by moment.
I have two healthy playful dogs. An extroardanry boyfriend who loves me more than I could ever imagine being loved. I have a roof over my head, food in my stomach, and money in my bank account. I am blessed.
I have, in this moment, everything! I almost want to keep it that way.
Thank you thank you thank you!