I have an opportunity to make more money. It would solve a lot of problems. I could pay my bills, pay rent, and afford Christmas presents. However, I would be working on Christmas, Thanksgiving, and all nights and weekends.
In my gut I know this is not what I want. But in my mind I keep seeing all the things I could afford to do and buy. Especially with the holidays around the corner. I want to be able to go apple picking, I want to be able to make crafts and sit by the fire, I want to be able to afford to get everyone a present. But to what expense.
I have a bad feeling about it. But I know it would help. It would allow me to save money. I wouldn’t live pay check to pay check. But my sanity would suffer. My dignity would be gone. I would have no pride in where I worked.
I would be doing it for the money.
Everyone tells you not to do that. Never do something just for the money. They also say listen to your gut. Well…..
What do I do?
Take the risk and make more money for a while or suffer tell I find a better opportunity?
I am having a panic attack thinking about it.
I have days where I can be positive and determined to make the most of the opportunity. But other days I cry because it is not what I want to do.
AHHH
Any advice would be greatly appreciated……
A Girl and Her Thoughts 
Change your mind about money. Decide it is good and helpful, use all your positive thoughts to pull it toward you.
Change your mind about your options. Re-read your post and see how negative you worded everything. You decided you only had two choices and that they both suck. Change your mind about your options. Look for the positive and keep bringing yourself back to the positive (as many times as it takes until you rewrite your inner dialogue programming).
One last thing: does this job require a contract you cannot break? I would assume not because most jobs you can quit at any time. Why are you treating this job like you are permanently selling your soul? After a period of time of trying to be positive while working at it, if you are utterly miserable then quit and do something else.
Alternatively, you can find happiness in the freedom as well. You can decide that life is bliss even without money. ❤
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@ariesintrovert Thank you. You are absolutely right! I have let myself get so wrapped up in the negative that I couldnt see what I was doing! Thank you for giving me a positive prospective! I should be looking at this as a opportunity to show what I have to bring to the table. An opportunity to be seen by the right people. An opportunity to fix my credit. A positive opportunity! Thank You Thank You Thank You!!
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