So this morning I woke up with a positive attitude, great hearing, and motivation to change my life. It is raining out right now but the grass is so green and air is so crisp it is almost a sign that things are changing.
I have always been a believer of the Law of Attraction. I know I have mentioned it before in a few post. The past few months it has been harder for me to be the positive optimistic person I know I am. Yesterday, our rent cleared and we decided to be positive and grateful for the ability to be here in this home. Silly but it is a positive accomplishment for us so we cherished it. Then my co-workers asked me out for drinks. Being new to the office, I should have been ecstatic to be invited out with everyone. But instead my thoughts became negative. I was so worried that a $5 drink would make it so I couldn’t pay bills. Only because we struggled so hard to make rent the moment before. I was worried sick that $5 would make or break my bank account. Realizing how negative this thought was I went any way and new I had to change my thinking.
It was not easy. I cannot even say I succeeded. I tried to be grateful for the $5 I had to spend out with my friends, I tried to be grateful for the abundance of money still in my bank account. But all I could do was put in my favorite Michael Jackson CD and listen to my favorite song. That is all the positiveness I got out of that situation. After my song I felt that I did not succeed in changing my thinking towards money and that I was not attracting it to me. Ultimately not making the night the best it could have been.
This morning I sat on the couch with my boys and decided to be positive and find a way to change the way I was thinking about money. I googled videos on the Law of Attraction and Money and decided to watch Bob Proctor on Paradigm Shifting. By doing so I realized a few amazing things. One, I was successful last night. I acknowledged that I was being negative and consciously made the decision to find something positive to focus on. Two, our Paradigms are habits we are taught through life and I want to change mine. And Three, I need to start making decisions.
To change your Paradigm you need to make a decision to do so. You don’t have to have the how, but you need to make THE decision that it is possible to change the outcome of your life. It changes the way the universe sends you things. You need to have a clear decision so that it can bring your situations and events to get it to you. This is hard for me. My boyfriend will be the first person to tell you that I dont make decisions. I know that is my problem. I need to decided what I want and work at it. Bob Proctor said that you need to consciously work at something for 90 days for it to be a habit.
As an athlete I know this. Muscle memory, diet, routine, everything takes time to become a regular part of your life. It takes time to get into a routine of working out three days a week. It takes time for your body to remember the next dance move efficiently. Your mind is exactly the same.
I want to be more positive. It is going to take time and practice for it to happen. It doesn’t happen all at once. Because I noticed that I was being negative and decided to change it even if it was short lived, I am changing how I react to things in my life. (A really good sign) Soon it wont be hard to think positive when I get caught up in silly things. Every day I wake up and express my gratitude for everything that I have, I say my daily affirmations, I choose to be the best I can be. Soon it will be a habit I wont have to read them I will know them. It will be my Paradigm not a chore.
I am deciding to change my Paradigm. I am going to make $80,000 a year. I am going to weigh 128lbs and be strong and healthy. I am going to travel. I am going to have a motorcycle. I am happy.
Those are my decisions. The HOW is yet to come.
A Girl and Her Thoughts 