Is Faith the Missing Piece?

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I have always been a spiritual person. Some times more than others. When things were good I went to church for the music, to de-stress and hear a good word. But once I was “saved” the word didn’t do anything for me. I didn’t get the same meditative clarification. My pastor was a great evangelist. He was great at bringing people in and getting them excited, but he didnt do well at keeping people involved. He lost me because of it. I would google messages online and listen to CD’s in the car but it wasnt the same. I didnt get the same feeling, the same peace.

Now I have hit a new bottom and cant see the light at the top. I have never been here before. I keep asking myself, is it because I dont go to church any more, is it because I am running from my family, is it because I dont pray every night like I used to, am I not grateful enough? Where did I go wrong?

Maybe the answer is to just have faith. Faith: to have a strong belief or trust in someone or something, with confidence. No where does it say that you HAVE to go to church, or pray, or be grateful to have faith. Faith is just trust. Trusting in something bigger that we are. Trusting that something somewhere has your back. The universe, God, aliens, our inner self, what ever. Faith is believing everything will be alright.

I think I dont have Faith because I havent had anything I have wanted to happen, happen. (I sound like a spoiled child). I dont trust that anything I want will happen. Trust is that feeling I had when I was “saved”. It was a comforting, clarifying, zen feeling that took all the worries away. I had a sense of peace. Now I am so stressed that my hair is thinning, my body is squishy, and I am depressed.

Now how do I get back to the girl I was? Is this what life is? Is this what people do? Is this reality? I dont want to believe it. I refuse!

I dont think Church is the answer, I think it is all in my mind. I need to find a way to place my faith, my trust in something I cannot see. Something I dont understand. Something that hasnt worked that last few times. Faith.

We all know that photo with the two guys digging to a diamond mine. The one guy gives up right before he hits the diamonds, and the other guy keeps going. The caption goes something like “Dont give up you are closer than you think.” I dont want to be the guy to give up, but I also dont want to be the guy who keeps digging and never finds it. How do you know the difference? When is it too much?

Is this a test or a sign? Is it a test of my faith or a sign to call it quits? Have I failed or am I almost there? How do you know? What is the balance? What is the answer? Faith, blind faith can only get you so far.

Faith is it the answer?

 

 

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Author: Jessica

Hello world. I am just a girl trying to find her place in this world. I am always looking for my next big adventure. I am currently learning the ways of the Law of Attraction and like to blog about my successes and failures within that journey.

3 thoughts on “Is Faith the Missing Piece?”

  1. God doesn’t work that way close your eyes and imagine your getting so overwhelmed by peace happiness so much that all you can do is be grateful for everything relax let go and let God and you will experience god I promise

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  2. I love the definition of: Religion is the belief in someone else’s spiritual experience, while Spirituality is having your own spiritual experience.

    Religion has a lot of dogma and rules. Spirituality has very few rules (i.e., there is only one of us and your thoughts create your reality are two of them), and rules may be the wrong word there… truths might be better?

    For some religion is the answer. For others it is spirituality. It depends on the person for which one is best.

    Keep asking questions, keep looking within. You will find your answer.

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  3. Nice write up. 🙂 I need you to check out infinite waters on YouTube he’s amazing ! He answered all my questions on finding my life purpose ! 🙌🏼 my guidance and an amazing amazing spiritual mentor ! We all feel lost when we aren’t sure of where we are going…the answer is actually all inside of you. Once you seek to find yourself you will see the magic !!!! I hope he helps you like he helped me. Light and love ! ❤️

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