I am starting to learn that this Law of Attraction journey is really a roller coaster of emotions. You start thinking positive thoughts then something comes around and tests your positive energy. You fall, get back up, and try again. Then something else happens, you fall, you get back, up and try again. Everything is a test. That is life.
Life is 10% what happens to you and 90% how you respond to it.
I keep complaining about where I am and what is happening to me. I go up and have weeks of positive energy, then something comes around and I am back to square one of worry and stress. But I always pick myself back up and continue the cycle.
I dont like this cycle. I want to break it. I keep saying this too. I look back on post I have written and notice that it is the same cycle different situations. I want to break this cycle. I want to break my norm. I am better than this and I KNOW the universe knows this too!
I am asking the universe for better and it keeps testing me to see if I am ready. Unfortunately I am not. I keep failing. I keep thinking if I had a different job, if I had more money, if I had just did this different, if I lost the weight. But it is not an external battle. It is internal. Nothing can change in your life until you love and have confidence in yourself.
I have written a post like this before too.
I tend to look at myself in a negative way. I am not proud of myself. I look for outside validation from other people to feel good about myself. I fell like a failure.I have gained weight. The whole nine yards. Truth is though, I am good enough.
The fact that I know I am better than this. The fact that I keep looking for more answers and keep trying to move forward. The fact that I keep getting up when I fall. All of these things prove that I am the person I know I can be. I just need to start acting on her. I need to put a plan in to action. I need to react to conflict with confidence. I need to act with a level head and take a second to assess the situation before reacting.
I know I can do this. I need to stop dwelling on the past, on what I was and become what I know I am! I will never be what I was, I will be better!
It is a process. I will probably fall again. But I can guarantee that I am learning and I wont make this mistake the same way twice!
Like Thomas Edison said:
“I have not failed, I have just found 10,000 ways that don’t work.”
Well here’s to 10,001!
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” I go up and have weeks of positive energy, then something comes around and I am back to square one of worry and stress.”
Ditto. You are not alone in this. I have cycles like this as well. I still manifest good things for myself even though sometimes I flounder and fail so the process must be forgiving of our negative thoughts.
I wish I could be 100% positive all the time, but for me personally that might be an unrealistic goal. I will just work to keep getting up after I fall down again (even if I do stay down and wallow for a while). ❤