The Secret and Hook

TrailThe more I follow the law of Attraction the more I see it everywhere. I was watching Hook the movie with Robin Williams the other day, and for the first time I realized it was a clear picture of The Law of Attraction. Through out history the have talked about people who new The Secret of the Law of Attraction but this is the first time I have discovered it unintentionally.

Through out the book The Secret they talk about the importance of visualization. In the movie Hook the first trial that Peter (Robin Williams) has, is when he is sitting at dinner and he has to imagine the food being on the table. This is one of my favorite scenes in the movie. He is starving and is watching all the lost boys enjoy this invisible delicious food. Once he lets go of his adult mindset, and plays a name calling battle game with Rufio, he pretends the food is there and it appears. “Your thoughts become things”. Athletes use their imagination by visualizing themselves completing their event successfully. Inventors imagined their invention before they created it. Bob Proctor says you need to visualize yourself being successful and you will be.

Another example of The Secret being used in Hook is the obvious use of Happy Thoughts. I feel I talk about power of positive thinking all the time. In this movie that is the only thing they talk about. Having happy thoughts. Everyone has that one happy thought that makes them “fly”. We all have happy positive thoughts but there is one, just one, that will break us out of our rut and help us soar into our next adventure! It took Peter finding out who he really was to remember his happy thought. This is interesting to me. I feel I am a very positive optimistic person. But I haven’t taken off into my abundant life yet. Maybe it is because I haven’t found my ONE happy thought. Maybe I haven’t found myself yet so I don’t know what my Happy thought is. This is a new step in my journey.

In the book The Secret they talk about the importance of Play. The Adult Peter doens’t remember how to play. In the beginning when he first meets the lost boys he cannot even play a simple game of basketball. He has fear and is worried about how the lost boys are not wearing helmets, have no supervision, no rules. He is not in the moment. He doesn’t realize that they are happy and they are living their life to the fullest. They don’t worry about helmets, supervision, rules, or food. They just play and imagine that that day is the best day of their lives. No worries, no fear, no anger. They Just are.

Lastly, the example of having child like faith and belief that good things are happening. The lost boys are children, they are happy, they have faith that everything is going to be ok. They believe you when you say you will be right back. Children believe you when you tell them something. We always tell kids you can be anything you want when you grow up. They believe that they can be anything they want! They take a box and create a rocket ship because they want to be a astronaut that day. The next day they take the same box and it is a race car! They believe that they have control to be and do anything they want. Children understand The Secret before they even know it is a secret.

The movie Hook shows us that the craziness of life can distract us from who we are (Peter growing up) . That life can take things from you (his kids get kidnapped). But it takes something being taken from your for you to remember who you are (your Happy Thought). It shows us that being a child and having that joy that children have, that innocence is important. It allows us to be happy now, enjoy the little things, believe that life really is wonderful. As we grow up that gets taken away. We need to remember to not grow up.

I took a self help seminar a few years back and it followed a lot of what The Secret and Law of Attraction follows. At the end the speaker told us to imagine that we are children in a box. That is all he said. We sat there in silence for a while a lot of us like WTF. Then one Girl goes “OH!”, then another “wow”, then I got it. We have the power to create our lives. Pretend you are a child in a box and you can make that box what ever you want it to be. Imagine your self making $80,000 a year, imagine yourself driving that car, imagine yourself being 128lbs. Believe that it can happen. Have no doubt in your mind. A child isn’t worried about how he is going to get to space, he just is. She isn’t worried about how she is going to fit into that dress for the ball, she just is. She isn’t worried about how she is going to afford med school, she is just going to be a Doctor.

Just by watching this movie, seeing that the Secret is everywhere, has assured me that I am on the right path. I have attracted more positive things, more movies, quotes, messages, to help me continue my journey to my dreams. The Secret is EVERYWHERE. You just have to be open to it. The fact that I noticed it mean I am doing something right! Here’s to being a kid again!


Continuing My Paradigm

snow-flower_1600x900A Paradigm is a habit. It is what we continually do routinely though out our lives. To change that is not an easy task. I have made the decision to change my paradigm. A decision that is changing my life forever and for good. I want to make $80,000 a year, I want to be 128lbs, and I want a motorcycle. These are my new paradigms.

Bob Proctor said, in one of his many speeches, that in order to become the person you want to be you need to act like that person. You don’t need to spend the money to be a millionaire, but you do need to hold yourself like one. You need talk like one. You need to dream like one. You need to pretend to be who you want to be. This is hard for me because I don’t know exactly who I want to be. I know I want to have a motorcycle, have tattoos, and be that sexy biker chick. But I also want to have a career and work in an office and be respected.

I can have both right?

So do I go get the tattoos and walk like the bad ass bitch I know I am, or do I  do I walk around in work cloths and act like I own the place. Or both. Where do I start?

One of the biggest messages I take from Bob Proctor is that you need to make decisions. You need to decided that you want to change. You need to decided that you will not give up. You need to decided what you want and pretend you already have it.

I need to decide what I want. All I can decide right now is $80,000 a year, 128lbs, and a motorcycle. So I need to walk around with the confidence that I am that weight, that I have that money to spend, I have the freedom to go ride every weekend. How do you do this? How do you not think “well it sounds good but is it really going to happen.” How do you do this for 30 days?

It takes 30 days to form a habit. To change you paradigm you need to change your habits. I have to find a way to act like a bad ass, rich, sexy, biker chick for 30 days.

Cool. Maybe I will start with a piercing. Or maybe I will get some motorcycle gloves.  Or actually sketch out my sleeve tattoo. I don’t know what I am going to do but I am going to do something.

I will let you know how it goes.

Attracting Money

moneyI have come to the decision that I think my Blog is going to be about the Law of Attraction. Through out this whole past few months the Law of attraction in one way or another has shaped my life. It brought back my hearing, my positive prospective on life, my job. As I mentioned before I am changing my Paradigm, and I am doing so with the Law of Attraction.

Bob Proctor helped me to realize that I need to start making decisions in my life. I have recently decided that I am going to make $80,000 a year. Have no idea how, or by doing what but I am going to do it! Well the past few days I have received more bills that I have in quite some time…. all very unexpected. So after being on a high from that motivational speech from Bob Proctor 6 Min to Success, this was a total downer.

After doing more research I have found that I have a fear of money. When I get money from someone or out of no where, I instantly think “wow how do I repay them” or “this is great but will it be consistent”. I am always afraid it will go away. I feel I don’t deserve money. This is the negative thought that is keeping money from me. I need to change my thinking and I need to start believing that I do deserve money. This is easier said than done.

I probably sat at my desk and read 100 positive money affirmations today. I wrote down in my journal “Now, I release  this negative belief from my mind, body and soul. Now I am complete, happy, and positive about money. I am a Money Magnet and I am Abundance!”. I took my bills in my had and said thank you for the service that were provided to me with these bills. I have at my desk a fake check for $80,000 that I look at all day. But I dont FEEL good about money.

I dont know how to change that.

I have been on google trying to find an answer and the only thing that I found that is consistent in all the teachings, is being specific about what you want. Make specific demands or amounts and imagine your self spending it. As an athlete I know that visualization is a great way to help the mind get in the zone, so I am going to try it with money.

I am going to visualize looking at my online account and seeing $80,000 in it. I am going to visualize buying (Specific) things for my boyfriend just because I can. I am going to visualize paying my bill and saying thank you! I am going to visualize my credit card balances being $0! I am going to Visualize buying the plane ticket to Denver and not hesitating. I am going to visualize going out to dinner and getting specific menu item and enjoying it without thinking about cost.

All of these things I am going to get a specific amount for and I am going to FEEL myself having it now. I am going to feel how it feels to pay without looking at the check. I am going to FEEL abundance I am going to FEEL the joy!

Ah bliss. I will let you know how it goes!


Dancing in the Rain

RainToday I woke up and it was raining. A good, hard, crisp, fresh rain. Not only could I hear the rain pattering on my roof, I couldn’t help but feel the change and freshness it was bringing to my life.

“Rain isn’t about waiting for the storm to pass…it is about learning to dance in the Rain.”

This quote could not be more perfect for my life right now. Through all the struggles, through all the change, I am still dancing. I am changing my Paradigm. I am making continuous improvements. I have a plan! A positive, wonderful, abundant plan. Filled with goals and dream that I have always been afraid to dream of! Anything is possible!

Sounds silly, strange, too optimistic, but I cannot explain it. I can feel the change. I can only hope that people can see it in me. I hope that who ever is reading my post, following me on my journey, can be as motivated as I am.

My plan:

Track my food with Myfitnesspal

On my morning walks with my dogs think about 10 things I am grateful for. Truly feel grateful, and feel the gratitude radiate from me.

Say my daily affirmations in the morning in the mirror before work.

Take a photo daily so I can be sure to find something beautiful about every day!

Give love for my life and my boys. Show them everyday that I love them!

Attract abundance in every way into my life!


$80,000 a year, 128lb sexy body, full hearing, travel, positive abundance, and much much love!

I got this!

Change your Paradigm

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So this morning I woke up with a positive attitude, great hearing, and motivation to change my life. It is raining out right now but the grass is so green and air is so crisp it is almost a sign that things are changing.

I have always been a believer of the Law of Attraction. I know I have mentioned it before in a few post. The past few months it has been harder for me to be the positive optimistic person I know I am. Yesterday, our rent cleared and we decided to be positive and grateful for the ability to be here in this home. Silly but it is a positive accomplishment for us so we cherished it. Then my co-workers asked me out for drinks. Being new to the office, I should have been ecstatic to be invited out with everyone. But instead my thoughts became negative. I was so worried that a $5 drink would make it so I couldn’t pay bills. Only because we struggled so hard to make rent the moment before. I was worried sick that $5 would make or break my bank account. Realizing how negative this thought was I went any way and new I had to change my thinking.

It was not easy. I cannot even say I succeeded. I tried to be grateful for the $5 I had to spend out with my friends, I tried to be grateful for the abundance of money still in my bank account. But all I could do was put in my favorite Michael Jackson CD and listen to my favorite song. That is all the positiveness I got out of that situation. After my song I felt that I did not succeed in changing my thinking towards money and that I was not attracting it to me. Ultimately not making the night the best it could have been.

This morning I sat on the couch with my boys and decided to be positive and find a way to change the way I was thinking about money. I googled videos on the Law of Attraction and Money and decided to watch Bob Proctor on Paradigm Shifting. By doing so I realized a few amazing things. One, I was successful last night. I acknowledged that I was being negative and consciously made the decision to find something positive to focus on. Two, our Paradigms are habits we are taught through life and I want to change mine. And Three, I need to start making decisions.

To change your Paradigm you need to make a decision to do so. You don’t have to have the how, but you need to make THE decision that it is possible to change the outcome of your life. It changes the way the universe sends you things. You need to have a clear decision so that it can bring your situations and events to get it to you. This is hard for me. My boyfriend will be the first person to tell you that I dont make decisions. I know that is my problem.  I need to decided what I want and work at it. Bob Proctor said that you need to consciously work at something for 90 days for it to be a habit.

As an athlete I know this. Muscle memory, diet, routine, everything takes time to become a regular part of your life. It takes time to get into a routine of working out three days a week. It takes time for your body to remember the next dance move efficiently. Your mind is exactly the same.

I want to be more positive. It is going to take time and practice for it to  happen. It doesn’t happen all at once. Because I noticed that I was being negative and decided to change it even if it was short lived, I am changing how I react to things in my life. (A really good sign) Soon it wont be hard to think positive when I get caught up in silly things. Every day I wake up and express my gratitude for everything that I have, I say my daily affirmations, I choose to be the best I can be. Soon it will be a habit I wont have to read them I will know them. It will be my Paradigm not a chore.

I am deciding to change my Paradigm. I am going to make $80,000 a year. I am going to weigh 128lbs and be strong and healthy. I am going to travel. I am going to have a motorcycle. I am happy.

Those are my decisions. The HOW is yet to come.

A Letter to My Second Cousin

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I have undoubtedly the most adorable, amazing, second cousin. We don’t talk much nor do we really stay in touch but she truly is on of a kind. Not only is she beautiful, fit, and smart but she has the most precious soul I have ever come in contact with.

She is always smiling. She walks in a room and everyone is instantly in a better mood. She has this glow about her, this aura that just radiates energy and love. Her eyes sparkle no matter who she is talking to. I have never heard a negative thing come out of her mouth. She is the most positive person I know.

She is a writer and a blogger as well. She always has the best post. They are so well written. Everyone can relate to her. She wrote about her parents once. It was the sweetest thing I have ever heard a grown person write about anyone they were related to. She had me in tears. Even if it is a sad topic she is always on the positive side of the conversation. She is the everything I am striving to be.

She carries herself so well and is so put together. She is at peace with herself and her life. She knows she can handle anything. She has an amazing boyfriend, great support group of friends, she knows herself and her passions. She is truly an amazing woman and I hope to someday be like her.

Every time we see each other she is the same positive ball of energy I remember. She is always interested in everything going on in my life and wants to know all the gory details. Best part is she really cares about it. You can see the genuine love and passion in her. She is truly the most genuine, passionate soul I have ever met.

I can only hope that I can someday light up a room with my presence like her. I hope to be the most positive person anyone has ever met like her. I hope that one of my cousins secretly writes a blog about me because of it. I hope that I can be at peace with myself and know my own self worth like her. I hope that I can be as fit and beautiful as her as well, but I think that comes with the inner peace part that she has.

Aly if this ever gets to you I hope it doesn’t embarrass you too much but I hope you know that you are one amazing women! Don’t ever change! Keep changing the world! I know you have changed the way I strive to live mine, and it is all because of you!

Love Jess

Hearing Left

hearingToday is a blissful day. Started out like the past few had a hard time hearing in the AM, got the dogs ready, went to work, had a great attitude, did some new years cleaning at the desk done. Since I went to the chiropractors  on Saturday I have been more aware of my posture (and how bad it is), so  today I moved my monitors up and adjusted my seat a bit. I did some posture strengthening exercises and tried really hard to get it righ. For most of the day I was online looking at positive affirmations and quotes to keep my mind busy. ( I know the life of a receptionist) But what changed my day for me was when I answered the phone.

Before my SSNHL thing I usually answered the phone with my left ear. Because my hearing was effected in that ear for the past two weeks I have been answering with my right. Today I answers with my left on accident…. and I could hear!!!! Before it was all robotic and muffed. Today it is clear. I can hear!!! I am so grateful for that one phone call. I am so happy that it is getting better!!!! I am so grateful to hear my dog wine, my boyfriends video game, the crazy lady at the football game behind me! I cannot even tell you how thankful I am today.

I am doing everything in my power to be grateful and not think about anything else. I am listening to my fingers hit the key board. (yes I am a clunky typer). I am listening to the dishwasher run, the neighbors run up the stairs, the sound of my breath. All positive thoughts all amazing things I took for granted. I am so blessed.

Is it the Steroids? My Posture? My positive outlook?

It could be a beautiful mixture of all three! All I know is I am not stopping. My steroid medication is almost done. I see the chiropractor on Friday. And every day of my life I am going to strive to be positive and find a new way to live a stress free life.


I am a success story. I do believe. I am a miracle!


New Journey to Hope

New Year Better Me.

Negative thinking took me hostage the past few weeks with the SSNHL prognoses. It has been a struggle to be positive most days. Most people would never know. I am always smiling and being optimistic. But deep down I struggle with the what ifs. I have not always been this way, but life has a way of making you value something wonderful, then take it away unexpectedly. So when I get something or when something great happens in my life I tend to think “Yay this is great but at what cost” or “Yes finally but what if he leaves”.

There are many quotes that come to mind that we have all heard regarding fear. Fear is a great motivator. The Media uses it daily, parents us it to discipline their kids, teachers with grades, religion with good and evil. Fear is what keeps us from doing the things we wish we could do.

At one time in my life I was in a great place of peace. However, I was still indeed afraid of heights. A friend of ours took us on the AMAZING hike that required us to walk to to the old manned fire watch tower in the middle of the mountains. The stairs to the tower went up a steep cliff and looked straight down to a plummeting death. I got half way up the stairs and had to stop. Fear was racing in my mind. “One slip I am done. How old are these stairs. They have to be safe right? No one would just keep them here if they were unstable. Is that rust? OMG that is broken wood.”

In that moment I had to stop myself and sit on the stairs clinging for dear life.  I had to change my thoughts. In that moment I made the decision to change my thinking or go back down. I focus my attention on up not down,  I focused on impressing my friends, I focused on how the stairs are helping my butt look good. I focused on ANYTHING to keep me from letting fear take over that movement in my life. And when I did that I made it to the top and saw a view I will never forget. You could see for miles. You could see at least 10 14ers, down town Denver, Red Rocks, DIA, Miles of Mountains. It was unlike anything I have ever seen. And it was all because I concord the fear that was in my mind. Sounds cheesy but this is that moment in my life that is defining how I look at fear. (Now all I have to do is remember it.)

In the Hunger Games movie President Snow says “Hope. It is the only thing stronger than Fear” and it is true. I am living in fear that the worst is happening. We all do. Its the easy thing to do. Shit goes wrong in life and we want to prevent it. But guess what? WE CANNOT Prevent it.

“Sometimes what we are most afraid of is the very thing that will set you Free.”

I am so ready to be free of this fear. I am sick of being afraid of how to pay my next bill, how I am going to survive with out my hearing, how I am going to make my car last through winter, how everything may or may not go catastrophically wrong. WHAT IF IT GOES RIGHT? What if I regain all my hearing, what if money was attracted to me in abundance, what if my car last 10 more years, what if my boyfriend really does love me unconditionally. Those thoughts make me smile. Those thoughts are going to get me to the top of that watch tower. I know what end result of that story is! I know how overcoming fear ends! I just need to keep that mind set keep that vision. Keep that HOPE alive. I don’t know what is going to happen, but HOPE is better than just assuming the wrong answer.

And when they do, you can bet I will let the world know!

“Always go with the choice that scares you the most. Take the road that has more cures, because these are the choices aht are going to require the most from you. Never stop challenging yourself.”

Lets do this!


Negative December. Be Positive Remember.

Well so much for writing every day. I was all gun ho and ready for new beginnings and new adventures! Then, A few days after my first post, I woke up with no hearing in my left ear. Being hearing impaired since I was 6 I immediately new this was not a good sign.

I immediately went to an ENT and found out that I may have SSNHL (Sudden Sensory neural Hearing Loss). Its where one day you just wake up and have no hearing. Happens to like 5% of the population. GO ME! It was a rough way to start and adventure. You don’t realize how much you depend on something tell it is taken away. I was started on a high does steroid treatment and have had very inconsistent results. It has been a very very very negative few weeks. Lots of tears and fears.

BUT now that it has been a few weeks and with the support of my friends family and most importantly my boyfriend I know I can beat this. By being the optimistic amazing person I am, I am coming to terms with all of it. (Kind of). I am focusing on the things that this can teach me not the things it is taking away.

“It is not the problem that is the problem. It is your attitude toward the problem, that is the problem” ~Captain Jack Sparrow

Now I don’t take little things for granted. I used to complain when my dog would wake me at 5am wining to go outside. Now I am so grateful on the days I can hear him wine. I treasure every sound my boyfriend makes, even if it is a fart or a snore because I know I may not hear that again tomorrow. I treasure my eyesight, my strength, my ability to smell, touch, move, and think. I have also come to to realize the importance of facing people when talking. Being fully engaged in conversations, giving all my attention to that person. Not that person and what time it is, or what is going on over on that wall.

It is far from over. I am going to regain my hearing back. I am a success story. We are going to figure out what is wrong and fix it. Technology is so amazing now I could get a cochlear implant and hear things I never even new existed! This is the beginning of my journey. For what ever reason I needed this to happen so it would kick start me into my life. I put the positive frequency out there saying I want more and this is what I got.

I do believe that next new years eve I will be laughing at how much I cried this past week. I will be in a place that I can only begin to imagine right now. Maybe I will be in an amazing career that I love. Or I will be celebrating marring my best friend, or I will be in my dream home with a HUGE fire place! Who knows, I do believe that everything happens for a reason and I am going to be better than I was before.





Hello World

Well here it goes. Hello world, my name is Jessica and I am new to this blogging thing. I am not even sure how to really start, so here it goes. I have always loved writing and sharing my thoughts with others, but have never had the courage nor the motivation to put it out there on the internet. What changed you ask? Honestly, my weight. It was not the only thing that motivated me to start writing but it was the straw that broke the camels back.

My boyfriend and I have just moved to Buffalo NY in hopes to find a new life and grand adventure! Grew up in Colorado and loved everything about it. We loved the mountains, the weather, the people, the beer, all of it. But we needed change. We wanted to buy a home, travel, start a family. All things would cost an arm and a leg in the 303. So we decided to go somewhere were we could afford to have an adventure. I grew up a very active person, three sport athlete in high school, went to college for track, always very competitive when it came to working out and keeping fit. As soon as I graduated and life (bills) started, it all changed.

We all go through life thinking that when we are older we will have it together. Well in my case that still has yet to happen. I am 28 years old and have NO idea what I want to do with my life. This is the first reason I decided to start blogging. I want to find purpose, I want to find my purpose. I want to find my passion and run with it tell it cannot run any more. I want more than this life that I have created for myself. There has to be more out there than this 9-5. I had a big kid job and big kid hours things were supposed to be great. But with that I had less time to work out, less time to go for hikes, and overall less time be the active outdoor person I once was.

My boyfriend and I started getting serious in that 9-5 life, and we all know weight gain comes when you are happy (stupid boys). I found a way to go to the gym in the morning and we made a pact to eat healthy. Thing were going well tell I got bored at work. There was nothing wrong with my job really I had just mastered my position and had no desire to move onto the next phase of that job. Boredom became stressful. I lacked energy, desire, motivation, my smile. It took a HUGE tole on my life. So one day we decided to make a change. (There is a lot more to that story but I will save it for another day.)

Now, 22 hours and 1500 miles later we are here, in Buffalo NY. The town where we can afford to live and play. The town where we could make all our dreams come true. Well we have been here a month and we have yet to go anywhere or do anything. The stress of moving, getting jobs, finding our way around, transferring bank accounts (the worst part in my opinion),getting a new licence, registration, insurance, and finding money to keep it all together, is not what we expected. We are both stressed, our dogs are stressed, and I haven’t even thought about what this has done to mu physical body.  Then looked myself in the mirror, and I stepped on the scale. My 5’4” body who has never in her life been over 123lbs was now 140.

I am not saying this is a bad weight nor is it unhealthy. Weight is just a number, as an athlete I know that better than anyone. It is how you look and feel that matters. There was a time I new I was bigger but liked how I looked so the number on the scale didn’t matter to me. Now though, I look bad, feel bad, and the number is bad.

So I decided to stop waiting for change to happen and start the change in my life. Hoping to inspire myself to run a bit, travel a bit more, and find the real me! I am now a Blogger.