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The Power of Choices

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There are millions of quotes on life and millions of programs to help you figure out what your purpose is. There are even more motivational movements and empowering stories. But even with all this positive enforcement, with all this information we have available to us, I find it is impossible to follow unless we make one definitive decision.

With all these programs, Life Coaches, and self-help books, we have an unlimited un-excusable amount of information to help us live the life of our dreams. So why are we not doing it. Why isn’t everyone living their dream life? Why are we sitting here in debt up to our eyeballs, day dreaming at our desk, wishing for that better life?

I believe it is because most of us are unable to make that one defining decision. We all want out of this mess, there is no denying that. We all want to live like Kim and Kanye. We all want to not struggle. We are just unable to make the ONE defining decision that will change our life. It is just one Decision and we cannot seem to make it. That decision is defining that ONE THING we want to do in life and doing it.

That’s it, decide what we want to do and do it.

Fear is an amazing emotion. It is so powerful and can be used in so many ways. I believe that fear is the main reason most of us cannot make this definitive choice. I personally have the fear of making the wrong choice. I have so many things that I am good at, and make me happy. How do you choose just one? I feel most of us are in this boat. We all have so many grand ideas of what we want to do or be, it seem impossible to just pick one. It’s not because we are indecisive, or don’t have time, or don’t think we can do it. It is because we are afraid it will be the wrong choice.

What if this isn’t the right job. Or the right field. Or the right direction. It is scary to think all that hard work will be for nothing and we will live forever in regret for making that choice.

The thing we need to realize is that once we make the decision and stick with it, the universe conspires to make it happen. If we choose one thing and stick with it tell the end the universe will work fast to get it to you. If you don’t back out and go all ahead full, you will get what you ask for quickly. Once you have it you can only THEN can you decide if this is what you wanted. If not start the process over again.

I have always admired my boyfriend for his ability to make decisions. He is always so confident and definitive, never an ounce of regret. I finally asked him how he does it and his answer surprised me. He said “I just pick one. I think it would be awesome to be a Carpenter, or an Engineer, or even starting my own business would be great! But I picked Construction Management and that is what I am going to do for now. At least tell the next opportunity comes along.”

Boom. Mind. Blown.

He is just like me, he has dreams of doing more than just one thing, he thinks there are a number of jobs that he would be amazing at. He just picked one and is going 100%! I was listening to Lori Harder a motivational speaker and life coach the other day and her message was; follow your curiosities because they will lead you to opportunities and people that have the same curiosities. By meeting new people you get opened up to new opportunities. So by sticking with one thing, and going balls to the walls with it, you never know who or what will come from it.

Now the hard part. Picking one.

There is no wrong answer, just solutions. Once you try one way, you find out one of two things. 1. You love what you do and it is your purpose, or 2. This is great but not what I want to do forever. You have ANSWERS! You crossed one off the list. You tried it, you made memories from it, you learned from it. Use those things to attract the next thing to you! Who cares if you are wrong? If you go 100% it will happen fast enough for you to change your mind and try again. Or it will lead you to someone that has an opportunity that would not have been available if you hadn’t done it.

The key is, to make the choice and go 100% with it.

Don’t look back. Just go. Do it with the passion and enthusiasm that you have made the right choice. Think about all the doors that will open and people you will meet. Step one is making the choice. Step two is doing it 100%. Step three is deciding that it is or is not your purpose.

Now for me to just take my own advice.

GO!

Spring is Coming, so is Change!

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This Easter I went to my Grandparents in Boston with my sister. We saw family we havent seen in years. It was great to see them and catch up, but I wasnt myself. I noticed that I was very closed off, I was watching what I said, and I sat in the back of the room. I was not confident at all. I felt like I had nothing worth wile to say or brag about. I have a mediocre job, I have gained weight, and have no plans to change it. Who would want to talk to me? What good do I have to share? That is when I realized I need to change.

Spring is a time of renewal. Trees bud, animals have babies, snow melts and reveals the beauty it was hiding. We can open the windows and let the old air out, clean under the things we put out for Christmas, and start new. Today, after reflecting on how I acted and how everyone acted around me, I have decided to make a change.

I know you have heard me say this before, but it takes time. I have changed a lot in  the past 6 months. My mind mostly has become more clear and positive. But today is different. When I started my blogg I also started a Manifestation Shopping List. It is a list of all the things I want to attract into my life. I dont look at it often but I do add to it. Today I looked at it and read what I had written down when I first started. I was amazed that I could cross some things off that list. With out thought I had accomplished and attracted things to me! I was shocked that I had changed things in my life! Here I was feeling like nothing was changing and I was stuck in this rut, but slowly and surly it is changing.

Here are a few things that I have checked off.

  • Regained my hearing
  • Traveled to see Grandma
  • Traveled to see Lou
  • Traveled to see Chuck and Kathy
  • Find a Career at HD (they called me this weekend)
  • Put my dogs through Doggie Day Care (Had them watched by a Pet sitter this weekend)
  • Started a support group for people with SSNHL on facebook

Small things, but things I didnt think were possible 6 months a go. Now I still have a few things on the list to check off but the fact that I am checking things off is progress! It made me feel like I was doing something right. I was on  the right path. Which in turn motivates me to do more.

Like the buds on the tree. Beautiful things take time to grow. The conditions need to be just right and they need to be strong enough to push through. No matter how slow you go, keep thinking positively and doing little things to change. The little things make a difference!

Spring is coming, so is change!

Start that second job! Start that blogg! Go for that run! Sign up for that gym! Open that bank account! Make that Vision Board! Apply for that Job! Read that Book! Make that Call! Start somewhere! Start doing something! One little thing can change everything! The ripple effect!

GO! Change! Do!

 

Daily Question

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I have never been here before.

I have never been this depressed.

I have never been this heavy.

I have never been this stressed out.

I have never been this lost.

I have never been this confused.

I have never been this old.

I have never been this BROKE.

I have never been so unsure about life.

I have never felt this feeling.

I have never walked this path.

Why am I so hard on my self if I have never been through these things before?

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This lady at my work had gotten a new puppy recently and was having some issues with her. She was biting my coworker out of play, but it was getting to a point that it was getting too aggressive. My coworker was so upset that she was contemplating taking her back to the adoption agency. She had tried puppy training, but it wasn’t helping. It was getting more frequent and more aggressive. With her family to think of as well, she was getting discouraged. Trying to make her decision easier I told her about our puppy Penny.  Penny wasn’t a good fit for our family, and we ended up taking her back because of it. It was the hardest decision we have ever made but ultimately one of the best. (*Penny is now with a loving family that could give her the attention she needed). Seeing some relief in her face, she said she would make a decision that night.

She came back to me the next day and I immediately asked her what she decided. She then told me the most bizarre thing I have ever heard. She said she sat down and talked to her dog about the situation. (Ya! Weird Right). She said she sat down and talked to her dog about how that behavior would get her sent back. She said the puppy had the saddest eyes when she told her this, and every moment after she was calm and happy puppy. She talked to her dog and it worked.

I am telling you this story, not to say dogs understand humans, but because it show you the power of words. No matter the species you talk to, your words have a vibration and frequency.

When I got home that night I started noticing how I talked to my dogs. We have a pudgier one that I talk to in a happy voice (similar to how you would talk to a baby) and I say “your so fat I love you but you are so fat.” To our other dog I found myself saying, “I love you you little shit” every time he did something wrong. Imagine if someone said those things to you. No matter how nice the tone of voice you would be upset. You would feel awful and would lash out in anger, frustration, or just plain hurt. Ever since then I have changed the way I talk to my dogs. I call them handsome, and strong, I talk to them and explain why they shouldn’t pee on the couch or sit on their brother. I tell them I love them and just smile.

Again, I am not saying that dogs understand humans, what I am saying is that words have a frequency. A frequency that can be felt by everyone and everything. I have talked before about FEELING your daily affirmations. this is how it works!  You should never talk to yourself in baby talk. “Your so cute with your chubby cheeks, yes you are. Oh my goodness look at those chubby legs!” Even in the most positive tone of voice this would never make you feel good! You need to intentionally Fake it tell you Make it! Really find one thing you love about yourself and tell your self daily that is is amazing. Tell yourself you are great the way you are now! Talk to yourself with pride! Talk to yourself with passion!

When I first started my journey on the Law of Attraction, one of my daily affirmations was “I have a beautiful, Healthy, 128lb body”. A great thing to say but in my head I new the real number the scale showed. It is always good to have a goal and to proclaim it, but don’t dwell on it. I have since changed this affirmation to “I have a beautiful, healthy, strong body”. I focus on things that are, not things that will be. I don’t dwell on the number that I know is not there. I focus on the little things I know to be true and I really do love about myself. I love my eyes, my hair, my teeth. I focus on the good things I know I have.

For the past few days I have been talking good things into my dogs as well, and I have noticed a slight change in their behavior. They want to cuddle more, they calm down when we are on the couch, and walks have been more pleasant. (Small things but they matter).  When talking to myself… well it has only been a few days… but my mind set has definitely changed. I feel I focused on the things that are. It allows me to be present, it makes me more positive towards myself and others. It makes me more aware of how I talk to others including myself. By doing this I am putting myself on a positive frequency to bring more good things too me.

It is amazing what you can learn when you pay attention. Even if is just to your pets.

 

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Do you want to build a snowman? Yes you want to build a snowman, and here’s why!

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Yes, I am referring to the Disney movie Frozen, and yes you do want to build a snowman. Here is why. While I was watching Frozen over the weekend I couldn’t help but notice that I had some strange similarities with the character Elsa. (No I cannot create an ice castle with an abominable snowman guard). I am Elsa in the since that I am afraid of life and want to shut everyone out.

I have a fear that I am not going to find my career and I am going to be stuck in this rut forever. I am holding myself back so I cannot hurt anyone by being my weird self.  I am holding back so no one can judge me for being me. I am keeping my wonderful abilities (powers) to my self. Every opportunity I have (Anna knocking on the door) I tend to over think and pass over. Now, I am afraid that I wont have any more opportunities because I ignored so many before (Anna stops knocking). I want to break free (Like Elsa did when she sung Let It Go) and travel the world. Leave all my troubles here and just go, see, and find new things. When Elsa did this she was herself, she was happy, she was free.

As wonderful as the song sounds, we all know running away is not the answer. Though we are free to do and see what we want, our problems will eventually catch up to us (thanks Olaf). Elsa in the beginning used her powers to protect herself from her self. She had never fully used her powers before and didn’t know what she was truly capable of. She had only used her powers out of fear. This is how I feel. I am good at a lot of things but I am afraid to show them.

I want to shut my self out from everyone, loose 15lbs, and find myself again by traveling.  I know that eventually all my problems will come back, but at least I will look good and have memories to share. But then I think this would be very lonely, and I have a wonderful boyfriend and two amazing dogs that I would miss dearly. It wouldn’t be worth it to leave them. (Plus I think they would all go out on a quest like Anna and try to find me. They love me that much!) What I need to do is learn to find my self in the now. I need to be able to be myself no matter what happens in my life. How do you ask?  I will Build A Snowman!

I know this is cheesy but the moral of the Frozen story,like many Disney Movies, is only true love can break the curse. Love. In the Law of Attraction Love is the highest frequency and Walt new this. You need to do everything with Love. Once Elsa realizes this she uses Love to save the day (She unfreezes Arendelle and gains a family)! We need to say Yes to the opportunities that get presented to us (Build that snow man), say yes to trying new things (open the gates), say yes to being your self (don’t hold back your powers)! People are going to judge you no matter what (not everyone likes snow). But who cares, they can move! Your happy that’s all that matters! Master the gifts (powers) you have. Use them for good not evil. You never know what your powers may be good for. (An ice skating rink in the middle of a palace is always good). They were given to you, and only you, for a reason.

I need to not fear what I am now, and start becoming what I know I can be. I need to learn how to be myself now in this time in my life and not run away. I need to not over think opportunities and take them. I need to learn to live my life in the now. I need to learn to LOVE myself now. If I don’t I will end up locked up in a room alone, cold, and afraid. I don’t want to be Elsa. I want to be Anna. Bold. Alive. Innocent. Excited. Strong.

I want to build a snow man. Yes, I want to build snowman. Come on lets try.  (You know you sung that) 🙂

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What do you Desire, a Job or a Life?

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Desire: A strong feeling of wanting to have something, or wishing for something to happen.

I was talking to a good friend of mine yesterday who, in my opinion, has a very successful life. He works three days a week and parties the other four. He has a home, a boat, three cars, and a motor home that he takes everywhere. He goes on vacation when ever he wants and has an abundance of money. So I asked him what his secret to success was. His answer surprised me.

He told me that he knew what he wanted out of a job before he got a job. He new he didn’t want to work for anyone, he wanted to make a ton of money without working all the time, and he wanted to work with people. So he found something he kinda liked, was good at, fit his criteria, and went for it. He doesn’t LOVE his job but he likes it. But he only has to do it three day a week so whats not to like. He said he would rather like his job and have the flexibility to have a life, than love his job and not have a life.

After talking to him I have decided that I have been thinking about Desire all wrong. I have this quote by Johnny Carson on my mirror that I read every morning that goes:

Desire! That is the secret of every mans career. Not Education. Not being born with                 hidden talent. Desire!

When I read this quote, I think about what job I desire.  Which is great, however, I should be thinking about what I Desire out of a job not the job it self. In all honesty, I don’t know what I desire to do. But I do know that I desire to be wealthy. I desire to work 7am- 4pm Monday through Thursday. I desire to live a joyful abundant life, and I desire to travel the world.

 

So here I am looking for the love of my life in a job, to suddenly changing the way I view my life. Sadly I am in the majority of the population that needs to work to live, so why not find something that allows me to live my life the way I want. I would rather LOVE my life than LOVE my job. I desire to have a life I love. Now I understand that it doesn’t mean having a job I love. There is a balance. Cool! More Decisions to Make!

Cheers to another milestone in my journey!

 

Superman is Busy, be the HERO of your own story!

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The quote “Be the Hero of your own story” pops up on my daily list of positive quotes every day. However, I didn’t quite understand it tell today.

Today the word I am working on is Accomplished. I paid off some of my medical bills, I send the Christmas presents I still haven’t sent yet ( I know I am bad ), and I took initiative and asked the web designer guy at my work his opinion regarding my interest in graphic design! It has been a very productive, accomplished morning. I was looking through my daily quotes, and for some reason I felt the urge to google “be the hero of your own story”. In doing so I came across a website ( ThePositivitySolution.com) with and articular titled Feeling Good Will Never Be Enough. Having just blogged about feelings, I had to read further.

The author goes onto quote Tony Schwartz saying “There is a difference between FEELING good and FEELING good about yourself”. (Great so much for my enthusiasm.)  He gave an example of you wanting to loose weight, but not having the time to work out. You set your alarm early, determined to get to the gym before work. The morning comes your alarm goes off and you have two choices; A)You  hit the snooze button so you can stay in your war bed and cherish another heartfelt hour of sleep and feel good now or B) get up, work out, and feel good about starting a habit that will benefit you in the long run. Most of us choose A (instant gratification), its easy, comfortable and you feel good now. Those of us  who choose B however, tend to feel much better about themselves and it helps them achieve results for the future.

I keep talking about the Law of Attraction and how you need to be in alignment with your dreams so the universe can deliver them you. I keep writing, and hoping, and waiting for SOMETHING to happen. I keep waiting for superman to come swoop in and save me from all my problems. I keep waiting for someone in front of me to buy my Starbucks just cause they can, I keep waiting for that good Samaritan to see the bald tires on my car and buy me new ones, I keep waiting for the HUGE check in the mail to bail me out of debt. Truth is superman is not coming. The superman I keep waiting for, is me.  I need to choose B. I need to choose to wake up. I need to choose to act. I need to choose to FEEL GOOD about myself.

Now, circle back to “Being the hero of your own story”.

I have noticed that all heroes have one thing in common, they all have a sense of self. They all have accepted who they are, and they are courageous enough to be just that. “Our Story” is whatever we believe about our lives to be true. I don’t like my story. I believe it should be so much better. I believe it should be abundant and Joyful all the time. Well, guess what, the only person that can “save the day” in my story is me. I need to be myself. I need to find the courage to be me and do what I believe is right no matter what others think. In doing so I will be in full alignment with the universe and great things will come my way because I made it so! No more waiting. I need to start acting.

For my life to get better I need to be myself. By being myself I qualify as a Hero. I am the Hero of my story!

Jessica to the rescue!

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It is Time to Start FEELING

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So I am in the process of re listening to The Power by Rhonda Byrne (I get something new out of it every time I listen to it), and I think I have figured out what action I need to take in my life. I need to start FEELING my thoughts.

Sounds silly but I don’t FEEL enough. I read all of these inspiring positive quotes all day every day, but I don’t really feel inspired or positive. I talk positive and smile and look at the glass half full, but I don’t FEEL any of it. I am only trying to focus my mind, but my body and soul don’t respond. It is almost like I am so disappointed in life that I don’t allow my self to feel anything. Yet I know there is more to this life. I know this is just a phase, a test, I just need to have faith. Instead of stressing about what I need to do to be in alignment for a career or my ideal weight, I am doing to allow myself to Feel my emotions.

The other day when my boyfriend got laid off I didn’t allow myself to feel any of the emotions that surged through me. I just pushed them back, and put on a smile and pushed forward. I didn’t allow my self to be scared, cry, or show any disappointment. I just was. Tell one night it all caught up to me and I cried my eyes out for a good ten minutes. Once I cried it all out, I picked my self up and we made a plan of attack. The very next day the check that I was waiting on (that got “lost” in the mail) arrived. Coincidence?

I need to start doing thing that make me feel good and actually feel it. I need to allow myself to feel my emotions. I need to put my phone down (the thing that distracts me from the real world) and really feel what life is bringing me.

It is OK to feel sad once in a while. Just let the feeling come, have it, then move on. Rhonda said in The Power ” without the bad feelings we would know the good ones.” Don’t bathe in them, just acknowledge them and move on. Being numb from the bad feelings also means you are numb from the good feelings.

My ACT is going to be, do the thing that make me feel good and deliberately take a moment to BE IN THE MOMENT TO FEEL IT. I am going to have to make myself be present, and feel the full feeling. It sounds silly and easy but I have been numb for a while now I am kinda nervous. I don’t really know how to do this. At least I am aware that I need to and I am going to try.

One Step at a time…Lets Go!

People with Goals Succeed because they KNOW where they are Going!

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There are two quotes motivating me today.

  1. Keeping busy and making optimism a way of life, can restore your faith in your self. ~Lucille Ball
  2. Boredom does not exist. The feeling of boredom is in your brain telling you to find something to do. That is why this feeling sucks so much.

I am a receptionist. I take 70-120 calls every day. Though this job is very important to my company and the people I talk to, I tend to have some down time. It is not consistent down time (half hour here ten min there), but because it is not consistent, I find it hard to find stuff to do (you can only clean your desk so many times). It is hard to start a project just to be interrupted by the phone. So, in turn, I have time to overthink and worry about everything. This is where my mind gets into trouble, this is where my mind gets negative. I do my best by looking at positive quotes and motivational sayings all day. But you can only do that for so long. Then I found quote number 1.

I need to find a way to keep my mind busy. I am an optimistic person, but I have a lot of time where my mind is not focused. When it is not focused it can easily be distracted to negative thoughts. So naturally, I googled how to keep you mind busy at work. I came across a sight that had a few good ideas. Some I have tried (Pintrest, Words With Friends, Adult Coloring Books) but there was one that really stuck out to me. It said to pick a word every day and strive to do everything you can with that word in that day. They gave examples like Happy, Friendly, Courageous. But for some reason today the word Empowering would not leave my mind. So I decided to make that my word for today.

I started to research Empowerment very vaguely online and found a quote from Oprah that is changing the way I think about this LOA stuff.

“The biggest secret in life is there is no secret. Whatever your goal, you get there if you are willing to work.”

A Goal. I need a goal. I mean I have goals, my goals are $80,000 and 128lbs. The LOA says you cannot worry about HOW thing will manifest. But you also need to ACT. How do you not worry about how it is going to happen and act on it at the same time. Are they not the same? This is where my second quote comes in. Boredom.

I am bored. I need to find a way to not be bored so that I can allow the HOW to happen. I need to find my passion or a hobby to keep my mind busy and alive. By keeping my mind busy, the negative thoughts cannot enter my mind. They cannot enter because my mind is already occupied with my hobby or passion.  I cannot just sit and wait for my sexy body to come to me, I need to be in alignment with universe and ACT.  This is where the “you need to act like you have what you want now” practice comes in. I need to wear the tight cloths (so that it will remind me to stop eating bad things), I need to stand tall and flaunt my self (it will give me confidence no matter my weight), I need to look proudly in the mirror and find one good thing that I LOVE about myself (this will have me looking for more wonderful things I love about me).I need to be doing positive things not just thinking them.

Most of the success stories I have read about the LOA have been to some extent the same in regards to the HOW it gets manifested. People would be doing what they love to do with out thinking of it like Fishing, Teaching, Writing, and someone would notice them. Then, out of no were, an opportunity would present itself. They were not thinking “oh today someone is going to come into my life and offer me a million dollar idea”. They just were doing what they love and someone noticed, or they came across and idea, or something presented itself in the form of an opportunity and it changed their life. The common denominator is that they were all doing something they enjoyed to do. They were in alignment with the universe and it was delivered to them.

So sitting here thinking positive things is not enough. I need to act. I need to work on being positive and find what makes me happy. I need to find a way to be busy and happy at the same time. I need try something, anything, even if it turns out to not me my purpose. At least I crossed that off the list and acted!

I am starting to feel Empowered!  I am feeling Empowered to move on and not be in this negative state! The universe put this word in my mind today I have no doubt. I want more out of life so I need to go get it! Lets go find my goals! Lets do this!

Before Something Great Happens, Everything Falls Apart

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I admit, this positive thinking, Law of Attraction, stuff is hard. I have had a rough couple weeks with it. I have been tested and pushed more than I would have hoped. I waked up every day and say what I am thankful for, I look at positive quotes every day at work, and say my daily affirmations. Yet things seem to be getting worse. Do they always have to get worst before they get better or is it me?

I keep reading and researching the LOA and how you need to FEEL grateful, skinny, rich, in order to attract those things to you. Honestly, that last like two minutes. I have felt more depressed lately than I have in a long time. Is that why things are worse? Or is it a test that if I feel good while things are bad than they will get better? Why are there test? Why can I not attract Abundance? Is this normal? AHHH

I think I need a mentor, a coach, or someone to talk to. I refuse to believe that life is a struggle! I refuse to believe that this is all that life has to offer us! I refuse to believe that this is normal! I refuse to believe that it always gets worse before it gets better! Life shouldn’t be a struggle. It should be an amazing adventure fulled with Joy, Travel, Abundance, amazing Experiences, good people, great food, love, Passion, and excitement! I refuse to believe that the life that I have been living is it! I refuse to believe that this is what I am meant to do! I have to much FIRE, to much SPIRIT to have this be it.

I am meant to travel the world! I am meant to have an abundant career! I am meant  for so much more that this! I have too much passion for life to be where I am at. Why am I in debt up to my ears, working two jobs just to make ends meet? Why cant I find my career? Why cant I be the woman I know I am and travel the world? Is it Fear? Lack of Opportunity? My Attitude? WHAT!!!! I feel I try. Every day I research how to get there. Motivational quotes, websites, books, you name it! I am a positive person, I try my darnedest to be positive. What am I missing?

All questions I intend to figure out….. If they really do get worse before it gets better, than something great is about to happen in my life.

One Day at a time. Here we go.